Why am I reading tarot and oracle cards now?
It’s something I never really saw myself doing, even though as a kid, my mom had tarot decks and books and she even did tarot readings for everyone who attended a Halloween party I threw sophomore year of high school.
Tarot, meditation and crystals never seemed weird to me growing up. As I got older, I gravitated away from them for a while but I kept feeling myself being called back to all of that, especially cards.
I remember going with my mom to Barnes and noble on my birthday a few years ago to get my first tarot deck. She said it was good luck to have a deck gifted to you, and she helped me pick one: The Wisdom Seeker’s Tarot. I didn’t know what to do with it at first, but I knew I wanted to have it.
I dabbled around with readings and spreads for myself a bit here and there, and that was it for a while. My interest simmered and then grew over the years, and now I own three tarot decks and five oracle decks. I’ve slowly been drawn to each of these decks, even though I didn’t know what to do with them for a long time.
Eventually I started connecting with more people who read cards because I was so interested in how people could do that and be so accurate without knowing everything about me. I wanted to do the same but didn’t really think it was feasible for me.
I continued to do readings for myself, but I often relied on the guidebooks that accompanied the decks to determine the meaning of the cards. Then one day one of my friends who also does readings, Demetria, posted about how she’d like to do free sessions with people who wanted to learn to read tarot intuitively.
Bingo! I reached out to her and we scheduled a time. When we chatted, I was really nervous at first but after talking with her and practicing a bit, the nerves went away and my intuition started coming forward. I was trying to guess what certain cards meant, and I was pretty spot on despite me not knowing their “real/official” meanings, which was a real hang-up for me in the past.
I continued to do more readings for myself and tried to use the guidebook less, but as we all know, old habits die hard.
A few months later, I felt an inkling to do a practice reading for my friend Shelby, who also does readings. I did, and she gave me great feedback and encouragement that I could be on the right path here. Eventually I read for her again and Christina, another friend who also does readings (I see you, universe!). She also gave me really positive feedback on my intuition, and she said that I was so good that I needed to start charging for readings.
That seemed like such a weird idea to me. I was just doing this for fun and to test my intuition! But something made me keep doing these readings as practice. I did them for several friends, and they all said it resonated with them.
That was really hard for me to believe at first. Maybe I subconsciously knew more about them than I remembered that was secretly helping me during readings? There had to be some other reasonable explanation besides my intuition, right?
So I did readings for a few of my other connections on Facebook and Instagram who I don’t know super well, and all of them said they also resonated with my readings. Whaaaaaaat?
After all of that, I decided to start thinking about actually starting a business and charging for my services. I never saw myself doing something like this, but I’m really happy. I’m still working on getting the business all set up, but I hope to be up and running and charging within the next few weeks. To sign up for my mailing list to get more details once they’re ready, click here.
My personal development journey has led me all over the place with lots of ups and downs and twists and turns I never saw coming. This new venture is no exception.
I don’t know where it will all go from here, but I know that I’m excited for what’s in store for me. I keep leaning on my intuition and trusting in it and taking chances even though I’m scared and nervous and feel like I’m not good enough to do something like this.
Who I am to think I can intuitively tell people what they need to hear with the help of cards? Who am I to think I can charge people for something I could just do free and for fun? Who I am to think I can do or write about any of this?
I am me. I’m Jessica. I may be obsessed with candles and The Office, but I’m also obsessed with helping and connecting with people and doing my best to do good things in the world.
If I help even one person get through one of their challenges, that’s reason enough to be doing this. While I’m still uncomfortable thinking about charging money for my intuition and services, I know it feels right because it comes from a pure, loving place.
I’m just me. I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time, but I’m learning to be okay with that.
If you’re interested in booking a reading or learning more about me and/or this new venture, please reach out to me.
This is only one of the many exciting things I have brewing in my life right now, and I cannot wait for the others to start rolling out. Stay tuned, my lovelies.