t’s time for me to embrace my inner foul-mouthed witchy bitch.
For too long, I’ve hidden parts of me from the world or even myself in order to better accommodate others or what I think others want and need from me. But I just can’t do that anymore.
Many people know how much I love reading, Harry Potter, The Office, self-love, makeup, music, writing, bright colors and spirituality.
But not as many people know how much I also really enjoy witchy things and swearing because I’ve been hesitant to share those things consistently or as often as I’d like to.
I feel like I always have to present a certain version of myself to the world and that I can’t veer away from that. I’m sure part of that comes from being a first-born child of divorce who always wants to be people pleaser and put others needs ahead of my own.
I didn’t realize until recently how ingrained those principles still are in my life, and I’ve decided now is the time to break that cycle. I can’t keep sharing only certain parts of myself. It’s not fair to me, and it’s not fair to the people who read my posts and messages.
I find myself holding back when I want to swear sometimes on here or on social media because I feel like I have to present the “good girl” persona I’ve followed for most of my life and “good girls” don’t swear. Well, fuck that.
I’m sick of being so careful with what I want to share whether it’s here, on social media or IRL. I know I have good intentions with what I’m sharing, and if someone else takes things a different way, I know I can’t control that or keep trying to.
I’ve already wasted too much time holding in my inner light in case someone else doesn’t like it. As I mentioned, I’m used to being the good girl and the people pleaser. I’m not saying that’s totally going to end now, but I’m going to start embracing every part and aspect of myself and my personality without worrying about what other people might think or if they approve of it or not.
It’s my life, and I’m ready to really start living it to the fullest.
It’s time we all started embracing ourselves. Do you find yourself hiding parts of yourself either physically in photos or emotionally online or in person? Aren’t you sick of not feeling like a full person? I know I am.
So here I am, embracing all of myself, from the breakouts on my face to the rough edges of my heels, from my compassion to my anger, and everything in between.
Will you, too?